A Curse or a Gift?

If I could go into the past and change one thing, it would be to change the collective decision of me and my mother to discontinue my piano lessons. I think that it would be a gift to have the ability to go back in time and decide to continue on with my musical studies. It would have impacted my life in so numerous of ways that it would be life altering. For one thing, I would have had music as a continuous musical outlet; I would have been able to craft my own songs, without depending on other artists to express my feelings in their songs. I would have had more confidence in the ability that I had and thus would have spent less time taking high school courses that did not really reflect me, trying to be something that I am not, and more time talking courses that would have developed my abilities and skills. Perhaps it would have made decision making for my future easier, but this I can never know. This gift would give me the chance of going into the past and erasing one of the most pressing regrets in my life to this day. I am now, nine years later still feeling the effects of that decision made long ago. Although I am still musically inclined and have still a great interest for all types of music, I cannot help but feel set back and cut off from something that I feel is so close to me, and yet, now, so far away.